Im searching my mind trying to figure this out 
i turned every corner and flipped every stone
2 years have passed and i still cant find what i am looking for.
How do you lose something that is so close to you.
My heart is said to be in my chest...
but  i dont hear it beating in that empty cavity...
Its hurting me to say this but I think i left it with my EX.
See... it was over so suddenly I didnt expect to see her move on
We had something so real that it seemed almost make believe
When she left the reality shattered my dreams...
Now i spend most my days in this crazy nightmare where I am a fiend  itching for my supply
I keep looking for a fix... begging for a hit..
ANYTHING!!!
I'll even inhale the residue of our love.. As long as it gives me the same high I had when she held me in her arms...
See her love was premimum 
I'm talking pure cocaine... 
I have tried another love but theirs is not the same
See I can only entertain their thoughts and with my body let them play
but when they get between my thighs I RELAPSE and see her face..
sometimes i even call her name.
You see Im Addicted to her... but I lost her to the game.
So i guess im supposed to charge it and move on to something better??
But what is better than the best ?
she was supposed to be forever...
That was my first... she was my future
I never thought she'd be my past
thats why i gave her my heart  
But she never gave it back
So here i am searching.. tyring to figure it out 
turning corners and  flipping stones 
but the verdicts been told 
Its not my heart i want back
I want my girl to come home.